Brian's Room
As you read this story please put yourself in Brian's place.
It could change your life!
17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was
what Heaven was like. *I wowed 'em,* he later told his father, Bruce. *It's a killer. It's the
bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote*. It also was the last.
Brian's parents had forgotten about the essay when a cousin found it while cleaning out the
teenager's locker at Teary Valley High School. Brian had been dead only hours, but his parents
desperately wanted every piece of his life near them---notes from classmates and teachers, his
homework etc.
Only two months before, he had handwritten the essay about encountering Jesus in a file room
full of cards detailing every moment of the teen's life. But it was only after Brian's death
that Beth and Bruce Moore realized that their son had described his view of heaven. *It makes
such an impact that people want to share it. You feel like you are there*. Mr. Moore said.
Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's
house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole.
He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.
The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living
room. *I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something
out of it,* Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision
of life after death. *I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.*
Brian's Essay: The Room...
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no
distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were
like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But
these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction,
had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention
was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I
quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then
without being told, I knew exactly where I was.
This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were
written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match.
A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly
opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense
of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.
A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from
the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have
Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at.' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've
yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I
Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.
Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed
by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my
years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this
truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.
When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to
contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I
hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but
more by the vast time I knew that file represented.
When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled
the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its
detailed content.
I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me.
One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room!
I have to destroy them! In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I
had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the
floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to
find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.
Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the
wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.
And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was
brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not
more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.
And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt.They started in my stomach
and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming
shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever
know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I
saw Him.
No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the
files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could
bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.
He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He
turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this
was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to
cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He
didn't say a word. He just cried with me.
Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took
out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. *No!* I shouted
rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name
shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive.
The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back.
He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He
did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back
to my side.
He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of
the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. -Phil. 4:13
For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not
perish but have eternal life. -John 3:16
My '*People I shared the gospel with*' file just got bigger, how about yours? If you feel
the same way, share this page so the love of Jesus will touch their lives also.
Now For More On This Story
Summary of this Page's Story: This story has been in two parts. The first part describes
17 year old Brian Moore, a student who was a part of a group of Christian athletes. In
preparation for leading a discussion at one of the meetings, he wrote an essay that he titled
'The Room'. Two months later, Brian was dead. He had a traffic accident, which he survived, but
was electrocuted when he stepped on some downed power lines. The remainder of the first part of
the story talks about what a quality guy Brian was and how much it meant to have 'The Room' as
a part of his legacy. The second part of story is the essay itself, a very moving description
of a dream in which he experiences a sobering review of his life and a powerful encounter with
Jesus Christ.
The Truth: 'The Room' was actually written by speaker and author Joshua Harris and is in his
book 'I Kissed Dating Goodbye'. He says it was something that he put on paper as the result of a
dream he had while in Puerto Rico for the 1995 Billy Graham Crusade and published in his
magazine the same year. Interestingly, Brian Moore was also real. He did attend the high school
described and lost his life as the result of a traffic accident shortly after having presented
'The Room' for the meeting of Christian athletes. His friends and family believed that he had
written it and the story about Brian was passed along to others sincerely. Joshua Harris told
TruthOrFiction.com
that he appreciates people
getting the facts straight about the origins of 'The Room' but he is more concerned that people
hear the message of the story than knowing who actually wrote it.
Let's Fill Our Own File Card---And May GOD Bless You All
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